Week 4 – So it is ALL in my head!

If I cannot control my emotional state, am I really addicted to it?  Oh yes!!!  Well, if I am not addicted and the control is something I really want, why don’t I already have it?

The exercises we are doing of repeating ‘I promise to…..I always keep my promises’ are setting up new neuro pathways that are changing my failure addiction to my success addiction.  Pretty amazing, to be sure.  And to think, a week ago, I had some skepticism.

Very quickly, allow me to share how the repetitive exercise with my ‘Service’ card manifested into accomplishing services not listed.  So I started the week pretty jazzed about accomplishing the first two chores (now services) in record time.  Not only that, the accomplishments were so simple and rewarding, I could not justify procrastination – an old friend who has been dismissed.  With the constant rhythm of ‘Do it now!’ beating in my head, I took care of something that wasn’t on my card.  What?!?!?

New habits

I arise before the alarm clock, excited to do my reading and my sit.  And today, I even indulged myself in another sit resulting in renewed energy and a continuous state of calm.  A mini vacation!  Wonderful.

My DMP is a work in progress.  Every day and every revision, I am closer to my genuine Definite Major Purpose.  The observer in me has identified a piece of the old blueprint, an old habit, that was to express what I think others want to hear.  Between my readings, sit, cards, and repeating ‘I always keep my promises’, I have to be tough with myself to get to the genuine article and I certainly do not mind doing it.  The result of each revision gets me closer to my world within.

I am so very grateful for this journey.

I can be what I will to be!!!

I always keep my promises.

Louise