Week 22A – The Other Side of Silence
I did it! I went completely silent for 2 1/2 days. To say I had no expectations about the outcome would be false. However, having never done anything like this before, I am not sure why I had expectations at all. Be that as it may, let me share how it was.
So, I began on Thursday at 1:00 pm. Up until 12:56 pm, I was dictating instructions to whoever would listen. It was important, because there would be two other people in the house, that there be complete silence. No music, no television, no talking to me or trying to make eye contact.
Armed with my Haanel, Mandino, 3 stacks of cards, DMP, BPB, Service card, POA card, Movie Trailer, Laws of Giving card, and my journal, I was ready to hear what I had been missing because of all the electronic and technological pollution.
Free of self created pressures, I settled into the Silence with ease. I couldn’t communicate with any one BUT I soon realized, NO ONE could communicate with ME!!! I was FREE!!! I wrote in my journal about my elation and subsequently dozed off. That was the first few hours. What followed was quite wonderful.
In my time of Silence, I was free to rest in the harmonious existence of Omnipotence, Omnipresence, and Omniscience. It was ultimate peace. It was a peace I could feel from without and within. In it my readings and thoughts flowed with ease. It was a wonderful respit and time of renewal.
My revelation came at the end of the 2 1/2 days. First thing I did was express gratitude for the time. Then I put my battery back in my phone. EXPLOSION! The notifications, text messages, phone messages, and emails seemed to sound off none stop. It was alarming. Reading and listening to them all, I was spun up so tight, I couldn’t even remember how it felt to be unplugged.
I was sitting on the couch when my husband offered his customary morning greeting. After kissing me, he questioned my state of mind because I was so very tense, very different from the last few days, the past few weeks. What was going on? I told him of the ‘reentry’ experience and that I couldn’t remember how it was when I was unplugged. Wisely, he directed me to read what I had journaled. I am so very glad I journaled.
I went into a second sit and found my peace. More importantly, it became abundantly clear what had happened and the solution.
The technological pollution I thought was clogging my mind was not the actual mental pollution I was free of during my Silence. What I had been freed of was the emotional pollution that is propagated by the ease of communication through technology.
You see, in my Silence, I was a new, clean, sponge. Once I reconnected, all the issues, problems, difficulties, i.e. negativity of others, was absorbed by the sponge. It became dark, heavy with burden, and had a horrible stinch.
Bogged down by this, it was my husband’s comment that opened up the fact that I was perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious, and happy. Choice, I had choices! That old blueprint that took on everyone else’s problems, always had an opinion to share, whether the topic was familiar or not, had made an appearance. I had not been honest. There was still work to be done, even though I have journeyed a long way in the past 24 weeks.
In my sit, where I reconnected with the peace, I emptied my plate that was overflowing with unhealthy, unnecessary, heavy, and unwanted junk. Now with a clean light plate, I gave myself permission to choose what I wanted on that plate. Taking my time, I am only putting on that plate what is in harmony with keeping the peace.
Interesting, my revelation did not actually come during my time of Silence but was a result of my time of Silence.
I am ready to do it again!!!
I give myself permission to be what I will to be.