Choosing the object of my attention
Another day of choices. Lord, help me to be present, in the now, making this time better than the moment before – I have no idea what is to come. All I have is NOW! The choices I make in the present may or may not be correct, but, either way, it is an opportunity to learn.
…. and today was no exception.
Because I don’t go to the gym on the weekend, I knew I would need to schedule in a workout. I had an online class to attend, so I knew I would have to run errands before the class began and do the fitness challenges after. If my husband was home, I would have to adjust the location in the house where I would do my workout. Plus there is a daily challenge of doing 100 each of push ups, sit ups, and squats, a challenge in which I agreed to participate. Today, in addition to the above, it was time to mow our lawn.
The day began well with my normal routine – a bit of a workout, half of the 100s, reading a bit, and then sitting in thought for 15 minutes or more. I had scheduled things around the online class. When the scheduled time for the class arrived, I discovered I was 24 hours early. Well, that freed up my time to run a few more errands.
It was such a beautiful day. Overcast and not too warm to enable a comfortable setting for outside work. I decided to complete my 100s before going out to mow. It was at about this time the chatter (in my head) began. There was great debate as to whether the lawn really needed mowing. Maybe just do half of it. The volume of the chatter increased but my thoughts were elsewhere.
I was thinking of my team mates. I was thinking of my 100s community. I was thinking of the fitness community. This prevented me from engaging with the chatter – a very good thing. The chatter reached a crescendo when I had finished the front part of the lawn, you know, the part everyone can see. I was exhausted. My shoulders were aching from pushing the mower up inclines and pulling it out from under thick blackberry bushes. I could stop and do the rest tomorrow! “Really, Louise, just do the rest tomorrow. You still have the rest of the 100s to do! How are you going to be able to do them, as exhausted as you are?” Man, Me, Myself, and I can be such irritating company, sometimes!
Every row I mowed, I congratulated myself that I was closer to the finish. Did I say I was exhausted? Too, exhausted to come back to finish the task at another time.
Here in is my inspiration, along with an attitude developed through practice of DO IT NOW! Of course I had a choice. One always does. The main thing is that I also had a team of incredibly exceptional people who I needed to report to. Yes, they have my back, but, NO, they would not judge me, whatever I reported. I wanted to be able to look at myself at the end of the day and know, I stopped because I was DONE!
As determined as I am about starting something I won’t finish, I know beyond any doubt, having my team of support spurred me on!
We all have the desire to be a part of something bigger than ourselves. We all have a desire for community. We were not created to be alone.
I am so very grateful to be a part of a community of like mindedness, of support, of encouragement, transparency, and genuineness.
Choose wisely every day!!!